SUPER DOPE RIGHT?!! and its wmns!! means no sizing error!!! omggg!!!

So you see how excited i am?!! BUT

I know i not gg to get it... hur.. cuz i juz bought an AF1 white.. not that i regret.. that shoes is a must-buy.. but juz.. if oni this wan comes with it.. hahahaa...

Die.. im officially a shoe addict. Eh..i think counted bah.. i like to see shoe and go gaga over them but no money to buy? so i suffer like the after effects.. juz like drug addicts... hahaa.. omgg.. still cant get over the shoes..

ok.. nono... i need get heels! Spot this Aldo black plain open toe heel.. i like.. hehez.. maybe wear for sis wedding.. BUT! muz wait.. cuz Aldo will have year end sale! so perserverance! CHRISTMAS SALES PLS!

Recital is coming!! so excited! Friends who are interested to come support pls buy tickets NOW!! they are selling FAST! can contact mi if you wan.. Recital is on 13 Dec 7pm. Juz hope that i have some supporters lah.. if not everybody go down stage meet their friends and family.. I'll be the only one!!!! And if you come.. bring flowers k? WAHHAHAA..

omg.. the shoes... *faints

HARLO! EARTHLINGS!

I feel like i living in my own world and cut out from frenz, shopping, news, and everythg else that matter. I oni have 2 places to go! HOME or DANCE. Let me spell out my schedule

Mon: Home 24 hrs
Tue: Home morning, Dance evening
Wed: Home morning, Dance evening
Thu: Home 24 hrs
Fri: Home 24 Hrs
Sat: Dance morning, Dance night
Sun: Dance morning, Home evening

yeahhh how happening!!! WOOO! I LOVE MY LIFE!

Holidays are here! and im PACKED!!
no... i didnt have a plan before the end of exams.. it juz didnt happen this time round. You know.. like everytime while you prepare for exams you would always discuss.. "eh after exam we go this this this...""we go there there there.." no... this time round its like pure mugging..

anyways im packed with dance lar.. i think i dance 3-4days a week.. i kno thats v little compared to those poly students who dance EVERYDAY.. i realli wish i could.. but as you get older.. things in life starts to have different priorities. I want to dance but whose gg to give me the money? I want to dance but can dancing feed me? I wanto to dance but do i have a future with it? Aiya.. as you get older.. you will know what im talking abt. I have a life to worry abt. Thats why im contented with every moment now. Trainings may be tiring, but if i dun do it now (in my holidays), when can i? And its going to be an experience thats memorable. Rushing for the last train after practice, waking early next morning again to the same place. (I might as well camp there, and we are going to! when dates draws nearer! lolx) Travelling to RP, NYP and all the other Ps to meet and train.. some time when im old. Its a proud story im gg to tell my kids. "Your grandma last time HIP know?! Dance dance wan ar!" HIP HOP YOU KNOW?!" it probably wont be popular anymore.. maybe its gonna be like Beatles to us.. old school and so un cool. BUT IM HIP AND I KNOW IT!

ok.. my special consideration gt rejected. At first its like kinda sad. I really dun wish to spend another $1300 for a carelessness.. its not like i dunno how to do the paper! if i sit for it and fail.. ok nth to say.. BUT!!! ARGH!! ya... but as it drags.. you start to not wan to think abt it. Its the speck of dust on ur life and you would juz "aiya.. juz let it be there.." kinda feeling.. i know... i shldnt.. OK! im gonna get my appeal done tml!! its the last push!! RMIT PLS LET MI RESIT!! (but i nv even sit for it the first time. why do they call it RE-sit?)

IM SO DUMB!!
OUTRIGHT DUMB!!

Im so sad and so affected...
I forgotten how many times i cried today..

I ACTUALLY GOT MY EXAM TIME MIXED UP!!
How can it happen to me? how?!
Ive always praised myself and been proud that im a good student. I passed 2.5yrs in Uni without failing any of my subjects. Without needing the use of special consideration. Sometimes i even look down on ppl who depends on SC cuz they din study. But today. I had to ask around for help on how to apply for SC. WHY?!! WHY?!! WHY Me?!

Imagine my surprise when i got to school. thought i was early. Held on to my notes while i stroll up level 4. Then i see familiar faces leaving. Why they leaving? I heard them talk about the paper. I kan jiong. Quickly grab one of those familiar face.

"Why you guys leaving?!"
"huh.. exams finished already."
"HUH?!! I TOT 2.15 PAPER?!"
"no. 10!"

damn...
i felt so lost. so lost. realli lost.
Called Travis. cried. He helpped alot. He calmed mi down and told mi juz to stay where i am while he ask ard. Called Wei Lun. cried. JiaHui Called. cried. Both of them helpped me alot. told me to go see doc, told me what to say. Where would i be if i have no friends.

So the rest of the afternoon is going around printing SC and looking for docs. $75 spent. 2 docs. No MC. Moderate implication. I guess i'll just have to try my luck. I juz wanna re-sit. i dun ask for anythg else.

I hate myself.
Inside out.

Im left with 2 weeks to go.. yes! 2 weeks before JUDGEMENT DAY! Revision is slow.. but i would say on track. Hopefully i would be able to quickly finish revising and start practising!! Esp for BF man! Im alone on that.. somebody help me. Anybody care to join me in studying in NP?

I seriously think my brain is useless. I cant remember anything for goodness sake! Not studies.. not dance.. yup not even dance! Its like for something that i love so much yet i cant rmb it!! ARGH!! IRRITATING! i need practice practice practice!!

AND AND AND!!! OMG XIAOHEI IS DAMN DOPE!!!
I love her man!! she is darn cute!! ahaha some of her reactions when teaching class.. lolx..
I totally love her choreo!
But somehow juz cannot catch the angle.. the attitude.. the lines.. the feel.. the steps.. ok i think im not catching alot of stuff.. WHY?!!
I wan more time to dance lah.. I need more money for classes lah.. I wanna session lah!

Today's recital trng i saw CHERYL!! so glad to see her! Haven been able to meet her for sometime.. haha seeing her do so well in her class somehow happy for her! =D
But when its my trng time... hmmm.. i cant catch choreo... =(
i think thats why i got a erhem position.. sadded.. i wanna learn the choreo!! its like so darn cool lah!! but.. i cant.. ='(
ok lah.. jasmine.. any position is still dance! do your part well!! You are already lucky to have a chance on stage! jiayou jiayou.. train harder and you will be better!!
YES!! FIGHTING!

UP UP!! I WANNA LEVEL UP!!!

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I think i realli need to put this up.
Cheryl is not in SIM anymore. JJ is busy with her own life.
Whose free to study with mi?!!

Sometimes when people and people come together, its not as simple as it may have looked anymore. You may be good friends with your BFF for couple of years, but when you realli get to know this friend.. you know the flaw that exist inside too.. den you decide.. hmm shes not good enough.. You may be lovely dovely Couple with your bf.. but how well do you know him actually. You may love your siblings and know that shld anythg happens, you would always be there for them.. also there are days you realli feel like they were nv born. Things happens.. relationships are complicated stuff that needs patience, management and lots lots of effort.

Understanding another person maybe the easiest formula to managing relationship, that is, IF you are able to understand that person. How often do we ASSUME that we know when it turns out otherwise? How often do we use time as a guage of our understanding of the relationship? As i said, relationships are complicated.. its an effect of everythg that happened.. and a cause that made everythg else different. Understanding one may take time, but time without effort is useless. But so often so that we take eveythg for granted, "I'll get this present for my gf! She'll love it, I'll be such a good bf, she wuld love me." When she does receive the present, "Thanks dear, i love it" and brushed it off with a smile. Den you blame her not not being appreciative enough. But is that what she realli wanted? Do you realli understand her? You thought you did. Of cuz, on the other hand, does the grl understand the feelings he had for her while getting the present?

And den, communications becomes hard. Language is amazing. One sentence can give so many meanings, interpretation become a hard chore.. so we assume! Thats where problems comes in. What is said, may not be what is interpretated. What is interpretated may not be what it is meant. With our little vocabulary, we try to get our message as best across, but sometimes a step of wrong word choice lands us in... deep trouble. "No, thats not what i meant!" "But i heard you say it! You said XXX!" You did say it... now you cant take it back.. boo hoo.. too bad.

When two persons come together, things become complicated. Now, lets all take a step back. Look at the bigger picture, imagine how things would be for you if you were to switch roles. Putting yourself in others shoes is always said, when was is actualli done? And yes, even if you might have accepted that the situation may not look good on the other side too.. den.. are we willing to compromise? Understanding muz be followed with action. All talk is pointless.

Do you really understand your love ones?
Have you put yourself in their shoes?
Think about it.

And stop decieving yourself.