idiot! idiot! idiot!! argh! spoil my day! nvm we will cum to that later..
k today prac my 4x100 with christine.. she super fast.. or shld i say im slow? wateva... i slowed down by 3 sec frm pervious run.. anyway after tat i went for odac AGM.. annual general meeting.. yar.. i was elected as the secretary head... was super happy i got into exco.. its gonna look good on my testimonial.. but damn! ah!!! humph!
kk... theres a guy i dun really like in odac.. when i say dun realli like i mean im afraid of him.. yar.. afraid... cuz he thinks alot.. read thru ppl mind... wateva.. juz scare of him.. anyway as everybody was walking out for the refreshment.. i was at the back.. he came to mi and said the exact say words "jasmine, i need to clarify sumthg.. i dun think you are good.. not oni i say.. alot of the rest[seniors] thinks so too" kno the feeling of enjoying the wind by the window?? suddenly sumebody push you off the window and bang! ALL GONE! argh! thats exactly how i felt! i was stun.. dunno what he was saying.. din catch the words.. but after that i realised what he said my world was crashing down! i almost cried! everybody tot i missed the seniors.. but hu cares a shit~! when one of them... argh~! wateva lah! i tried to get over it lor... din tok much after that... BUT! he is not done~! when we were all preparing to go off.. i heard him toking abt mi to the seniors lor! we are mostly sensitive to our own names.. so i heard him saying my name quite a few times.. one of the seniors still ask "who?" and he repeated my name! *super pissed off!*
dunno what they toking abt but i DUN LIKE ONE BIT OF IT! while going home i called christine.. felt so stupid... idiotic... kris is rite.. why i juz stand there let him say? ask him where is not good abt mi ar! why the hell did i feel like crying? juz bcuz of one comment.. but the rest of the J1s voted for mi.. they trust mi yet i dun trust myself.. what kinda stupid person am i? i tot of confronting him.. but the tot juz scares mi.. i dunno.. i sat in the bus alone and tears started cuming.. felt so helpless.. argh! NO.. i shld prove to him that i have what it takes! damn him!
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kk.. shldnt get so angry.. shld reflect on it! nvm.. at least there is still sum nice seniors.. their kind gestures... will miss them..