thinking alot nowadays.. more den normal lah.. not tat im a person tat loves using brains.. its hardwork.. haha.. but ya.. tot alil abt my frenz.. like i dun seems to have alot of frenz since young.. pri sch can say most enjoyable bah... but now all nv contact le.. sec sch.. actually alot.. now oni left with no i can count with one hand.. dun even have to finish using my fingers... now jc.. clz fren.. felt like i affecting their studies cuz i not exactly a "pls-sit-and-concentrate" person... cant help but disturb them during lessons.. odac frenz.. most of odac ppl dun like mi bah.. i guess.. den left a few can tok but alil afraid of how they are treating hs now.. will they do the same to mi? crap..

relationship... nv realli treasure ppl ard mi.. they are all nice.. but.. dunno.. still waiting for the right wan i guess.. haha..

life.. no money no tok wat rite... yup.. and i dun.. yet look at my wishlist! oh god.. its adding and lengthening... haha.. always envy ppl who have parent to buy this and tat.. while i have to buy everythg frm stationaries to clothes myself... den mi... i no determination and no responsibilyty wan oso.. haiz..

family... my family dun show love de... like i like how parents still hold hand and show love infront of their kids.. how big brothers care and teng lil sis... my family of cuz good ar! my dad always thinking of us first.. even though he not so financially well now.. he try to satisfy all of us.. [-.-" he juz got my bro a guitar to learn] my mum.. willing to do anythg for us.. my sis eh.. dunno.. she seldom home these days.. my bro.. better to tok to.. like having sombody of my age.. like close fren? but he oso sumtimes dun care mi at all.. oni find mi when he need help or sumthg.. always says im weird -.-"

i try to be happy... ya.. still trying

ur hints are obvious.. i kno whats coming tml.. but wat you expect mi to do? i dun realli kno you yet.. we met like twice? you are nice lah.. argh! i hate it when it comes to nice ppl! damn.. but but.. slowly pls... i dun have a clue wat to do now.. dun pin too much of a hope on mi.. stay as cousins isnt it better?