today is family day. we went out to bugis for steamboat.. all was fine until we started to have some lil pep tok... it was between my dad and my sis.. the family is facing alil financial prob and my um is thinking of going out to look for jobs.. and stuff.. so my sis is actualli helping to analyse if my mum is right to go out and stuff.. although im not very comfortable with my mum going to work outside i guess i shldnt be too selfish. but the topic got realli bad when my dad spoke of how he has gave himself for the family.. always putting the family before him.. [i kno tat daddy... i love you and appreciate wat you done for the family] hence my sis was telling him not to think too much abt us and more for himself.. my dad not young anymore.. choy choy the business oso wun last very long.. business realli bad now.. so my dad shld start doing things tat HE likes and not live for us.. however there is one thing that my brother realli dislike my dad to do.. to smoke and drink. yes its bad.. but come to think of it.. daddy has been smoking and drinking since he was 18! he is now 52.. asking him to stop now.. wat if something is to happen to him after he stop? who can we blame.. and other den smoking and drinking with his frenz.. wat can you expect daddy to do? yet now.. whenever he wans to smoke.. my dad has to move to a corner or hide in the kitchen.. its pretty heart-wrenching to think of that juz cuz my bro dun like it.. i started tearing and the tok after tat din help

my mum as i said wanted to go out to look for jhob.. so my dad was saying he nv cared abt wat my mum is to do he dun realli care if she die outside or wat.. so she is free to do wat she wans... they are not argueing or wat.. but the thing is tat i always wanted a realli loving family.. but my dad saying tat he dun care abt my mum juz dun sound right to mi.. and my mum also always complain abt my dad to us.. so its like.. a couple if cont like this. does it last?

nxt time when we grow up and venture into work.. its would left juz them. both of them oni. so if they were to cont, can they last? im very afraid to see a broken family.. i dun wan one.. hence i believe nxt time when i look for husband i wan one that i can realli tok to.. love to mi.. would nt last as long as wat communication can bring. maybe some of you believe in true love and stuff.. of cuz i do.. but to be practical, i dun think it will last in modern times when after setting up a family, we are putting more infront of love for our spouse. our kids would definitely be infront. nxt would be providing for them. being financially stable enough to provide for a family.. which realli meant career. without being financially stable enough.. couples would tend to have more conflicts. [i see this in my family] therefore i wan my husband to be able enuf and of cuz i would do my part as well to provide for them family. but love to mi realli wont be able to allow my family a comfortable life. communication on the oter hand is the solution to problems in life tat would inevitably happen. communication allow my relationship with my spouse to last longer, for we do not kno after 40 50 yrs, would i still emotionaly feel as attached to my spouse? if i have to spend the rest of my life with somebody, i chose one tat i feel comfortable toking to..

ok i kno.. my gp sucked.. my pts are all over.. but you do get my pt dun you?
its all tat mattered...